Sunday, August 14, 2005
For god so help me, i'll stab you in my sleep!My fragements
I hate you. I hate what you forced me to become. I hate you for your words and your thought. You never know how much that is. I try to hide all more emotions inside but now i just feel like exploding! it's all your fault, yes YOU! Now i hold fears inside of me, tears flow out of my eyes, yet i try so hard ot hide. i had kept all regrets in inside my heart. Nothing good dwells inside of me but darkness. All the madness teared me up. Life is a bitch. I no longer know what to say, what to do. Where can i heal myself? is there anyone there to help me! =] i'm strong, but my heart feels weak. I'm young but my soul feels warm. That's what you made me to be. =] That's what your heart disire right?
why does it still hurt when there is no more you and me?
I love your voice, but i hate it when you call my name. I love your smile, but i hate how it makes me feel. You were what i wanted, but i just cant seem to be with you. but i do believe your mine. However it's all just a dream although i'm wide awake. You are on your own. You have your life, your choices and decisions. Not mind. So dont bother to stop and think twice for me if you met someone else who loves you more than me. That's all i m asking for. Since now i told you, you should know. =]
Okay.. this week was quite emo. I didnt know what i wanted, what was going on. So decisions were always made wrong. Tsk but anyways HECK! =] Girlfriend and I are going through all this things today. One day we'll sit down and talk about this yes? i love you <3>
Today, i went kayaking for some nyaa thingy. The currents were strong. Made me a little seasick. It's so unstable and the kayak is small with only one person in it. It's scary man. Haha But it's fun. Four more hours and it will be done. till then i shall watch CSI till then, i hate you =]
Just like that
9:25 PM
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