Wednesday, August 31, 2005


Introspection

Everyday, I realised that no one really knows me. The funny thing is that, how can they when I dont even know myself well enough. I still dont know what I wanted after so many days. Tskkkk, what a failure I am. I have search so long, so hard and on the verge of giving up. Boo, I'm superrr lost and confuse right today. Who knows about tomorrow. I know I seemed tough and happy to the world, but I need to confess. I'm seriously not okay. I hate how weak I feel now. Sometimes i need to fake that smile, to prove my happiness is real. Even talking to you too. It seriously needs alot of courage to do that mann. But i realised just a wave could do and everything was alright now. It changes my mood to become a splendid one. I did not know it could help so much. I'm glad i got you once, and maybe now? =] Your smile are just warm and beautiful la. That is the reason why you got to smile and that it cheers people around you up. Okay, i shall contnue. I'm trying hard to let down my guard, but my regrets just cant go away. I'm having doubts on what my life is about. Nothing is quite yet.

Today rocks la. However the teacher's and aces day thing is so not good mann. We had to do the national day dance. It's superrrr boring la! Goodness, we had to keep doing the same actions all day just that it's different in song. Only the last one was nice. Laughs, in the hall i slept during the prefect's talk. I still prefer the 2004 prefect. Haha she was so much nicer and she came today. 4c2 performance was okay. Angeline and I cheered loudly. Beep was super stiff but cute, skirts, pretty which leads to fabulous. Heh I bet joey was cheering too la. Yay, 4c2 rocks. After that, we played basketball with Angeline, Seetoh, Teresa, Melinda, Clarissa. Headed to macs with them too, start playing volleyball then netball later. I guess i got super tann. Laughs, just take a look at my face you will agree. There is so much of uneven colour. Gracious me, I must go tanning someday during school holidays. Okay i better go and start mugging. I wont be blogging for a few days so bear with me readers. Haha


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