Sunday, May 14, 2006


Black ribbon
A second chance was given but you blew it.
This is what I have been thinking through this few days. As usual, emotions driving us one by one up the wall. People do change, no one is perfect. So by right, we cant really point out others flaws, but this just happens that we have been friends long enough. Yes, we have flaws, we bothered to try. Even A had tried for a period of time. So it's up to you to try, we cant force you. Oh wells.

However that doesnt mean that when we are thrashing out stuff means we are trying to control what your doing now in your life. Or what you are thinking. If we knew your reaction or what you might anyhow think of, we wouldnt have thrash out to you. Given your expression on that day i really had this urge to kick you out of it. Seriously, you said thrash, but you kept frowning. What is with your face eh? You seem like you didnt want to accept it. As E said your like a coward, unwillingly to accept what we said to you. She was just trying to voice out what she thinks since it's thrashing out time. Since your going to sit with each other like for the entire year?

Trust me, I dont have any comments about you and your gf, or against you two. I just cant get it, you know your rls is uhealthy, unstable, you need your friends the most at times when you are breaking apart. Talks and talks about friends are forever, rls cant always be forever. Since yours is already unhealthy, the more you should treasure and realise you need your friends the most. You are being such a DUMB block. You dont seem to realise how far you are drifting away or changing, and you ended up saying your (used to be) good friends, E and J have changed. Hello, if you go around asking most of us, it's only you 3 freaking pople think that E and J change. Why are you all that stubborn? I cant stand it. Even I feel bad for E and J. Your ditching them unintentionally man. You treat them like your toy, not the other way round. Like hello lah, it's damn obvious. Since in class, you said you cant really click with others, so you only have E and J, some of us to talk too. Or else you will be really lonely. Like some transfer student just got transfered into our class.

Actually you are fine without your gf with you, but now even without your gf, you become a "wayang". I dont really expect you to tell us everything, cause we are not that close as how E and J are. But you should know your limits. Right she's your gf, you both are suppose to be honest with each other. But then again how can you know whether she is really all truthful? I dont know about you, but i can say that i dont trust her. More importantly now, i dont trust you. EEE and who on earth doesnt feel anything or numb when you get ditch or again another conflict, one after another. If you feel numb, and dont even feel anything at all, why are you even for goodness sake crying? Are you trying to gain attention or what? This is totally superficial. Ask yourself how long have you both known each other before you got each other.

I dont want to care, i dont want to bother. I dont even want to ask what happen, when you start coming to class with puffy eyes. I gave up on what you always promise, i gave up on how you think, how you care, how you feel. I gave up on giving you and giving you another chance. I dont really wanna judge but you can be quite a ass at times. So i heck it. Now we are gone, so you are on your own(:

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You might think that we are outsiders, but we are friends, we used to be friends, close ones in fact. But why because of this thrashing thing it turned out to be this way. It's okay if you dont want to change, the most you just drift away from us. Dont come and say that we are the one drifting away from you, when it's your fault. They tried saying hi, but what did you do, roll your fugging eyeballs at them? So dont try and twist it around and saying they didnt, they tried and you ignore. So forget it. Dont bother say change too cause they did not. And you obviously wont know you change right? But we can tell, we know. We know that E and J did not change, it's you. Suckers, just admit it you were the one. Another coward i guess. Fuck is all you can say. So what's new?

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It's not wrong that you are straight forward with your comments. But i think you are really really straightforward till you didnt even think about yourself. Like hey, you are actually like that too. You dont seem to see that sometimes you are just in the wrong. Sometimes you dont even bother to try, and you kept saying you cant make it. Is it just me, or are you simply just a weakling? Totally not showing your true side. But i'm glad i got to know you better, knowing your true side. Though it's harsh but at least i know how you are like. You dont have limits to what you say. You just say when you feel like. Please, can you just control at times. You have to think of others too. What happens if i insulted you out of sudden when your having fun? It's seriously a killjoy. Yes, people have their different period of moodswing and pmses. It's okay to have it, but hello at least control. So happily just shut your mouth up unless you think your really right.



I'm done with this-


Just like that 4:39 PM


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