Sunday, May 07, 2006
Found love beyond all reasonTests are almost over. Thank god! Totally not excited for the results, I bet I will fail at least 4 subs. Ugh. Oh wells, at least is almost over. Stress and pressure will not be entertained after the whole common test thang. My new hobby crying. Cried over retarded reasons. I dont know why, i feel like a freak.
There is dang cute guy working in macs in heartland. Gosh, hah as in seriously. Even i went crazy thinking that his cute, so his officially cute. Hah my taste is not that bad kay. LOL!
Watch daisy on friday. Good show, cried indirectly I guess. Hah cause it's sad. Amanda said kim cried like some crazy lion. Haha. The whole week was study. that was the only day we could actually take a break(: hoots, i'm starting to feel emo.
Thought alot this few days. I dont know why i'm starting to have random thoughts about everything. What is the world coming to? People going around tagging blogs with ridiculous comments. As in why cant people mind their business, and stop poking around. Like that's their life. Hate it that much? Dont bother right? rahh even friends can be problems. Emotions emotions. It's revolving around everybody.
Friends come and go even ones who you considered 'good'. People do change easily. First, it seems like an unbreakable tie. The understanding that joints you and he/her and though could interlock. But as you get closer to her, you realised, she/he's not what you thought. Then as stress and pressure began pilling up on you, you cant take it anymore. She/he became a real pain, an annoyance, an irritant, you had to release. If considering her/his feelings, it's going to be tougher, so by all means you let it out, Bang! There you go, another drifted rls with a friend. Who knows again, it's the intake of pressure, stress you get. Or maybe it is just who the other party is. Perhaps a sudden stir of emotion and tension that is created within oneself. Emotions again.
Love is like the same game. More deadly and dangerours. Love caught you by the throat. Vague memories that plays in your head when your in love. You always never have the slightest doubt on what's going to happen the next day. It was filled with laughter but then grief. He/she ran away with what you both had together. Leaving you alone to heal and emotions show. You cried, you bleed, you hide and you fell deep. Your eyes never seem to be dried. You feel angry, you let emotion take over again and again. It hurts others who tried helping but you turned them off. We should really try and say 'so what if your not there'. It's not like 'I cant live without you' Your gone but i'm not dead. Bury all of it, start today, today. The past is gone, and today is here. Learn something from the set back and get on with life, sharing love to others, knowing that 'Love is when you have given all, and yet you still give the little that's left.'
Emotions, emotions, emotions. Dangerous things but can be oh so b.e.a.UTIFUL. HAH(:
-call me yours forever
Just like that
11:14 PM
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